I just finished "studying" (rereading all the power point lectures my professor has put up since the beginning of the semester) for my midterm this afternoon and I only have thirty minutes till I have to bike to class. It's nice having all my classes one after the other on mondays and wednesdays, but I really wish I had them earlier... I hate going to school at 1:40 and not getting home until 6 or even 7 on some nights >.< oh well. This is the last semester of evening classes, thank goodness! Like I mentioned I have two more midterms this thursday, and another test sometime next week... blegghhhh. I'm burned out! I can't wait for spring break. It would be fabulous to spend a week down in mexico on the beach sipping pina coladas.... but I can settle with hanging out in prescott too i suppose :) besides it's not like I'm really missing out on warm weather down here.
That was quite a digression. What I was going to say is that I'm so busy with school stuff that I'm going to take any available opportunity to blog since I'm a bit backed up on posts! We're almost done with this 30 day challenge (thank goodness) and I've got some fun things planned for after that... so stay tuned!
Day 27 - A problem that you have had.
I certainly know I have, and I think it's really sad that our society has reached this point. Why is it that uber-skinny girls are seen as the idols of beauty? It's completely unfair to the rest of the world that it, yknow, healthy looking. I've seen quite a few girls become obsessed with eliminating body fat, working out religiously, eating on strict and ever-changing diets.... all to reach some unattainable image that honestly probably wouldn't even be attractive without all the airbrushing and editing.
I've definitely been there, and I'm relieved that I saw the light and decided to just do what is healthy for my body. I used to constantly be looking in the mirror, checking how fat my stomach was... I would count calories and weigh my food to make sure I didn't eat more than 1000-1200 calories a day... and if I rose above 120 I'd get upset with myself and vow to work harder and eat less.
It was pretty f*cked up, and it's even more f*cked up that there are hundreds of girls out there with even more unhealthy habits. I eventually realized that I'm a whole lot happier if I just eat whatever I want (although I do try to be healthy- no meat, whole grains, lots of fresh fruits and veggies) in moderate portions. I'm also a lot happier if I stick to a workout regime that is fun and not over-exhausting. AND it's a whole lot better if instead of stepping on the scale (I don't even own one now) I just judge my weight on how I look and feel. I think I look good- a healthy thin, not an unhealthy one- and I know that I feel good. I also know that if I overindulge i definitely wont feel good, and if I don't eat enough in a day I wont feel good either. It's all about being healthy and doing what feels best for me, not catering to some unrealistic ideal that has been set up by the media and crafty editors.
So, that's a problem I've had and luckily one I've conquered. I just hope that all the girls out there who feel so angry and upset with themselves and spend their days looking in the mirror and wishing for something else will realize that they are BEAUTIFUL, no matter what.